Good is bad

So apparently being a good guy gets you nowhere. Being a good guy means that you not as interesting to girls as the bad boys are, you are not worth much and people love to mess with you.

I for one am tired of being the good guy. I hate being tossed around like trash. I treat people the way I want to be treated, with respect and kindness. No matter how nice I am to others, I'm always getting rude comments or sworn at for saying something nice.

I feel worthless and strange around everyone. If I died tomorrow. Would anyone care. I doubt it. I'm nothing special. I'm not worth peoples time. None listens to me, so why bother.

None asks me how I'm feeling or if I'm ok. None takes the time to know me before talking trash about me. The only feelings I've had in the past few weeks are pain, and sadness. I'm alone and with none to turn to. No one to trust. No one to turn to. I'm alone and it's horrible.

The me everyone knows will cease to exist. And in place of him will be a silent robot.




Short update

So my heart has been destroyed by someone I've really liked for over 2 years now. She is one in a million and I'm never going to find someone like her again, someone that I was truly happy with, who could maker smile anytime I was down, someone who was always eager to start a conversation, even if we had no subject to talk about. And I just wasn't enough.

12/15/12

The worst feeling ever is loving someone who is with someone else. :(